* Saturday, July 29

Name 20 people you can think of right now.
Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 people.
At the end of it all, choose 5 people to do this.

1. esther
2. joscelyn
3. laurie
4. jill
5. lari
6. nessa
7. sheryl
8. nini
9. peiwen
10. lavinia
11. anthony
12. biswas
13. bernard
14. antaeus
15. ah ma
16. debbie
17. melissa
18. jared
19. charles
20. larris

how did you meet 14?
- church.

how would you feel if you never met 1.?
- I WOULD DIE! she’s my fulltime tuition teacher for all the modules! (:

what would you do if 20. and 9. dated ?
- peiwen doesn’t even know larris and vice versa. besides, peiwen is not larris’ type, and peiwen likes BUS. so yeah.

did you ever like 19. ?
- I LOVE THE RAT! (:

would 6. and 7. make a good couple?
- they’re already dating. (:

describe 3 !
- she’s hilarious and always comes up with lame stuff to make us laugh. especially the card trick at chomp chomp. remember laurie??

do you think 8. is attractive?
- OOOHH. yes! HELLO! you’re talking about nini here! (:

something about 7. ?
- she’s sweet and nice and I love her this l---------l much.

Do you know any of 12. family members?-his brother and parents.
what are 9. favourites?- looking at bus from afar, making me and lavinia laugh, gossiping, MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. that’s about it.

what would you do if 18. confess that he/she likes you?
- hahha. he wont. trust me. right jared?

what language(s) does 15. speak?
- English, but SOMETIMES she speaks alien.

who is 9. going out with?
-no one yet. She’s waiting for bus...

how old is 16. now?
- sexy seventeen. ((:

when was the last time you spoke to 13?
- OOH. LONG MANN. lots to catch up on.

who is 2.'s favourite singer?
-EASY. hilary duff. but now I think its troy bolton and gabriella montez. HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!

would you ever date 17. ?
- I ALREADY DID! right mel?

is 11. single?
- DEFINITELY!

what is 10.'s last name?
-PHEY WOON TING!

would you ever be in a serious relationship with 13. ?
-YOU’VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME. cannot anyhow steal all.

what school does 3. go to ?
- NYP.

where does 6. live?
- NOVENA.

what are your favourite things about 5 ?
-she’s sweet, and frank about everything, and I mean EVERYTHING!

ever seen 1. naked?
-NO. then i’d lose my tuition teacher!!

5 people to do this.
- nessa
- melissa
- sheryl
- jared
- anyone else who’s interested. (:

3:29:00 pm

losing your wallet is a crime, its a sin.
because when you lose your wallet,
everything inside is gone.
your IC, ezlink card, money.
and everything inside there is DAMN important okay.
more important then your life alone.


me: "mum, i lost my wallet"
mum: "haiya, where?"
(to mum's husband) "your daughter lost her wallet in sch"
mum's husband: "you love to make a crisis right? make somemore. its fun."
mum: " she didnt purposely lose it right?"
mum's husband: " you think i print money is it?"
mum: "then your son lost his wallet 5 times already you also nvr do anything?"
mum's husband: "who said?, i give him hell."

YOU FUCKING LIAR.
YOU HAVE ALWAYS LIKED HIM MORE.
SINCE THE DAY HE WAS BORN.
even mummy knows that.
and she's said it umpteen times.
WHEN IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY,
HE GOT A PS,
AN XBOX.
I GOT AN ADIDAS WATCH,
WORTH LIKE 3 TIMES LESS.
NVM.
IM NOT FUSSY.
I WANTED THAT WATCH ANYWAYS.
BUT THE XBOX 360 WAS OVER THE LIMIT.
was it his bdae?
no.
then?
so what if he paid half.
i wanted to buy a digi cam,
and pay half.
but you didnt want to pay the other half.
GOD knows why.
FINE.
then when his bill went so high, what did you do?
take his phone for 5 days,
then just returned it back again.
he was working.
but you didnt ask him to pay it.
instead,
you payed FOR him.
and his freakin xbox.
i had to pay for my bill.
and i wasnt even working then.
and you took my phone for like 2 months the last time?
i can still remember.
now that i lost my wallet,
you dont allow me to go out??
i dont even have school today!
and its with my CLASSMATES.
like what the hell.
I WILL REMEMBER EVERY SINGLE TINY DETAIL.
I SWEAR.
IM NOT SUPPOSED TO HOLD GRUDGES.
BUT THIS IS WAY TOO MUCH.
I CANT STAND IT.
you make me sick.
the sight of you is such a turn-off.
now you know why beloved dislikes you.
but she still respects you this l----l much.
after that much,
then you will have crossed the line.

i've made up my mind.
to become a catholic.
when im 18.
i will join RCIY.
with or without your consent.
to enter GOD's kingdom.
to worship HIM.
HE will take care of me.
HE will always be there.
HE loves me more than you do.
" We are all special children of GOD, and GOD loves us one and all"


MY HELP AND GUIDE WHEN I AM WEAK. (:

Dear Lord,
Thank you for giving me a chance
to see you in your great work through Christie.
She is quick with her hands and steady with her tasks.
She is responsible and delivers more than required.
Her surprise and earnest expression
when she is learning something new reminds me, Lord,
of how i too should be as receptive to learning new things.
The way she accepts challenges and never gives up
makes me think of how great a servant she wil be in your kingdom.
It reminds me to also accept challenges quietly and positively.
Thank you for putting her in my path as help and guide.

11:12:00 am

i love you and you know that.
i still care about you.
and before it could even become one week i thought about you.
you wrote a letter?
can it explain everything i have to say?
can it explain everything i want to know?
tears flow endlessly
as the hurt that follows is embedded deeply.
no words can describe the way im feeling,
that i dont even know how to feel anymore.
amplify will really help.
but will YOU go too?
will you be my source of hope when everything else fails?
nothing else matters as long as you're by my side.
i miss you.
so much.
i want us to be friends again.
i dont know if its possible at all.
is there only one way out?
really?
i dont wanna take that path.
NO NO NO.
i cant.
i dont want to give up everything we ever had.
for what?
i know i'll regret it for the rest of my life.
and so will you.
please?
dont do this.
now i feel its totally happening back to me.
KARMA all over again.
just like it happened to you.
and i dont know what to do anymore,
nothing to feel.
since dad is alreadygiving me hell.
i dont have school tmr.
so that's ONE relieve.
I WANT TO SEE YOU.

guardian angel.
you know who you are.
i love you sweet thing. (:
you've been helping alot.
thanks dear!
you owe me ice cream!
(:

ant.
thank you too.
for being my cheerleader.
always making me laugh at nothing.
HAHHA.
MISS TALKING TO YOU ALREADY.
((:

3:12:00 am

OMG
can someone tell me what is happening on the 9th of august?
not NATIONAL DAY!
something else.
lari?
jill?
laurie?
sheila?
anyone?


more importantly,
I LOST MY WALLET!
will the kind soul in np BS school
please return it to me?
i really hope its found.
the IC and the WALLET is the most impt.
the money although was quite a sum,
can be stolen for all i care.
THE WALLET!!
return it please???
pretty please?
i'll pay you!

this is lose wallet month for three people.
GOSH.

while i was on the way home,
i thought of lots of things.
about YOU.
about HER.
about the other HER.
about ME.
about SJV.
about CHURCH.
about SCHOOL.
about my CLASSMATES.
about EVERYTHING.
and..
im SOOOO BLESSED!!

THANK YOU PEIWEN AND LAVINIA AND
DESMOND FOR ACCOMPANYING ME!
YOU'LL ROCK MANN!
((:

oh and larris!
i dreamt that i moved to HOUGANG.
and that i went for amplify every week okay!
ITS A SIGN MANN!
((:

but now im stuck between amplify and grandma's place.
dead..

8:03:00 pm

let's start by blogging about yesterday first.

MONDAY

it was an EXTREMELY BAD DAY.
i had school till 4,
then after school had BUSINESS STATISTICS test.
just imagine the pain i was in.
GOSH.
and the test was HORRIGIBLE!
the answers were so straight forward,
and you know its like 10 marks for three lines.
who would have known?
i kept checking and checking,
to make sure it was right.
and to think it was at the first attempt.
shit mann.
shouldnt ahve changed my answers.
im so gonna fail.

also.
my phone got confiscated!
bill too high!
so all those who msged,
hahaha.
SORRY!

TUESDAY

AND!
i forgot to call you again!
im so so so sorry!
i will okay.
like if i dont fall asleep again.
you finish at 6pm today. you know who you are.
TONIGHT TONIGHT.
and I KNOW,
and YOU KNOW TOO.
this is exciting.
i'll tell you more if you tell me too.
hahahha
woooooo.
INTERESTING.
kaypoh queen of the world.
I WONT SAY.
JUST LIKE HE WONT TOO.
the one you PANGSEI at the bus stop.
hahhaa
so yeah.
i will call!!!!!
((:

XIAODI
i really need to talk to you.
we need to clear everything.
saturday.
i dont know what time yet though.
im hoping, and praying.
with all that i have.
that you wont cry.
that you wont be sad.
that you wont hate me.
that you'll carry on like last time.
when we first met.
when we first talked.
because i myself am not sure.
ask me again, i'll tell you the same thing,
I DONT KNOW.
i have a feeling something bad is going to happen.
AND I DONT WANT IT TO.
REALLY.
i dont.
so i'll be praying.
dont disappoint me please.
PLEASE.
i cant handle this.
not right now.
just not right now.
if you want to wait,
by all means im fine with it.
just dont expect anything.
i know you cant wait.
but if __ years was alright,
what would another __ years make a difference?
im not being sarcastic.
but if you really waited that long.
then you wouldnt mind any longer.
this is how im going to test your trust.
because i have MAJOR stuff to clarify with you on saturday.
SATURDAY IT IS.
i'll be there.
waiting.
that spot.
when i was having rehearsal
then i came to find you and s - - - - - - -.
that spot.
then we'll walk to somewhere else from there.
yeah.
alright?
we need to do this.
and it has to be now.
i have a choice, and so do you.
(((:

im going for amplify prayer meet on friday,
and if i can make it,
every friday.
IF I CAN.
so i hope something happens there.
it will really help.
i know so.
from what larris and antaeus have said,
and all others
who have experienced GOD's wonderful grace.

I WILLLL BE THERE.
AND PROMISES TO GOD
ARE NOT MEANT TO BE BROKEN.

-- AND I WONT.

2:57:00 pm

decided to make a new blog all over again.
the other one was getting kinda boring.
haha.
((:


some stuff to harp abt.


YOU*
why couldnt YOU* just accept the fact?
was it that difficult?
it was a long time ago.
what did you expect.
i know you're trying,
but does anyone see anything happening?
NO.
do i see anything happening?
NO.
THEN?
like whatever.
i dont know what else to say to you.
ignoring would be good.
for you.
but what abt me?
doing something wrong, then apologising.
your FAVOURITE.
what abt not doing it at all in the first place?
ever thought abt that?
i dont know if you'll read this,
but its just something for you to ponder abt.
in case there's a miscommunication,
this is not for my xiao di.
yuppps.



this one is though

you cant expect me to just throw our __ years
of friendship down the drain
and forget everything that ever happened.

remember the swimming lessons?
the competing against each other
so that we could go home early?
the playing after lessons?

going over to your place?
just to do nothing at all?
or watch the many VCDs you have in your collection?
or to listen to music on your com?

talking under your block, about absolutely everything?

playing stupid games and doing stupid things all the time?

talking on the phone till we were dead tired
and remembering we had school the next day?

if you intend to throw everything away just like that,
then im disappointed in you.
you're not who you used to be.
i dont know what to say anymore.
im giving you one month. from today.
that means its till the 24th of August.
i want you to sort everything out.
im not going to talk to you,
and you're not going to talk to me either.
till you set things straight.
and remember what i said,
its not fair if you do this.
and i mean it,
its not fair at all.

2:43:00 pm